Letter

Both of my boys are sleeping in their rooms and I tried to shut my eyes, but my mind just keeps racing. I'm feeling very sentimental tonight and all I can think about when I close my eyes is my Son and how grateful to God I am for him. So, I thought I would write a letter to Walker, my first born.


Walker,

Five short months ago you came in to my life and I'll never forget how I felt when I first saw you. I always knew I wanted you, I always knew I would love you.. however what I didn't know is how much of an imprint you would make on me in such a short time. Before you were born your dad & I talked about you and wondered who you would be and if you would look like me, or him, or a mix of both! We prayed hard that God send us a healthy baby when it was his time. I knew in my heart that I was so ready and I wanted a baby so bad, but you were worth the wait and that God was saving you for us.When we found out we were pregnant I just cried tears of joy and thanked him over and over again. I really couldn't believe that you were mine and I was yours. Feeling your little kicks was the most amazing feeling and brought so much excitement. I remember you would always kick your daddy in the back at night because that's when you were most active. Being pregnant with you in the beginning was so easy! You never made me sick, you gave me a glow, and I craved healthy foods. When I was nearing the end is when it became tough. I would feel like giving up and cry because I was so exhausted and miserable because I was so swollen and big. Thinking of you gave me strength. I knew I had to stick it out for you and push myself. In week 36 I was put on bed rest. That week was probably the toughest of them all. Even though I was at home I was bed ridden and not in control of my body whatsoever.

Finally, week 37 came and they induced me. You were extremely comfy in there, but my body was getting worse by the day.  At 12:00 PM they took me in the back to get a C section. I'll be honest I was extremely scared and couldn't stop shaking. Your dad held my hand and told me that everything was going to be okay and that I needed to hold on for just a bit longer. Finally, on April 22 at 12:21 PM  I heard you cry for the first time. I couldn't see you, but I could hear you and tears just started streaming down. I knew you were perfect in every way and when your dad held you and brought you over it made everything so worth it. I wish I could freeze time and go back to that day because it was the best day of my life.

Bringing you home was an adventure. We had to learn you and you had to learn us. It wasn't easy but we made it through the first few weeks. Your newborn stage was a blur, but what I do know is that I loved being your mom and the sleepless nights were all worth it when you would just cuddle and lay on my chest. I could just stare at you for hours and be completely content. I spent many days just me and you and I loved every bit of it. April came and went, so did May and June. July hit me like a ton of bricks. July meant it was time to go back to work. Leaving you was so hard. I wasn't ready yet, but I knew I had to go back.

Since going back to work the months have flown by even faster. Now you are five months old and so much fun. You play with toys, smile all of the time, make the cutest noises, and now you are sitting up all by yourself. Watching you grow and learn has been so much fun. I know you will be crawling soonish and even walking by next year. I love that you enjoy the outdoors and want to explore already. I hope you never lose your sense of wonder! You and your dad are my world and I couldn't imagine my life without you. You have changed me in so many ways and have given me the gift of patience. However, the best gift of all is being your mommy. Everyday I look forward to greeting you with a good morning and getting the biggest smile, I look forward to cuddling you at night after your bottle when you are super drowsy and being all sweet. I know these moments won't last for long. You won't always want me to hold you, or cuddle with at night. Just know that I am always here. I'll always be your mom and I'll always love you unconditionally.

"The best day"

Thank you for choosing me.


Love,

Your Mom.

Five Months Old// 9.22.15

My little boy is 5 months old!! He is changing/growing so much and I'm loving every minute of it.  Here's just a few things that have changed from last month!

• He is starting to sit up on his own and can balance himself when playing with toys
• When we go out to eat or to a store he no longer wants to sit in his carrier and wants to sit in the highchair/stroller
• He is eating baby foods on the regular and will usually have a fruit for breakfast and veggies for dinner
• He is reaching for everything and has even put his hands in my plate a few times
• DROOLING EVERYWHERE
• Super talkative and squeals all of the time
• Still loves bath time and splashes all over the place
• Sleeping from 10PM- 8AM

"5 months old"

"3/5 months & still same scrunched up smile"

"Balancing with his toys"

"Hey Mom, I'm ready to eat!"

"Daddy gave W a Mohawk!"

He is so much fun and keeps me busy. This stage is so much fun and I know it's only going to get better! He isn't my content little baby anymore that just wants to lay and cuddle. He always has to have something to play with or chew on. He is seriously the cutest baby ever & I love that he's all mine. The Holidays are upon us and I really can't contain my excitement. Next month kicks off the festivities and I am itching to get my chunky butt in a pumpkin! :)

Labor Day Weekend!

This year I celebrated Labor Day a little differently. My best friend Jordan is getting married in October and the wedding party/ friends all headed out to Panama City for her Bachelorette. We left Saturday morning around 10 and got to Panama around 1. We stopped at an outdoor mall and did some shopping and then got lunch at Panera bread. Once we were all done we headed to the beach house at 4. It accommodated 17 people and it was really nice. Tons of space and places to sleep. Once we walked in it was decorated and had goodie bags for us. It was so cute! Once we got settled in we got ready for the fun night ahead of us.

We all wore black and Jordan wore black and white so she would stand out. It was fun getting ready with all the girls. We did each others hair and makeup and of course had to take tons of pictures. Chandler made us some sailor hats to pin in our hair. The theme was last sail before the veil and tie the knot. Once we all got ready we walked about 15 minutes to a restaurant/club called spinnakers. We all ate at around 6 and I ordered the bang bang shrimp wrap. It was really good and of course I ordered some tasty drinks. My favorite was called the waverunner. Once we finished eating/drinking we walked back to the house to waste some time before going back to Spinnakers around 10. We played beer pong, and danced the night away. It's real easy to have some fun with a house full of girls. Instead of walking back we called a bus to come get us! We danced the night away and sang some karaoke. It was a super fun night and one that I will remember. It was my first Bachelorette as a Bridesmaid and it was my first time leaving Walker for the weekend.

"selfie"

"Me & the beautiful Bride"

"Me & Bev"

"Chan, Me, Zuri, and Jo"

"More of the ladies before going out"

"All the ladies at Spinnakers"

 

The next morning we all woke up around 8 and Jordan/Chandler made all of us breakfast. We had grits and sausage casserole. It was delicious!!! We hung out for a while and then got ready to walk across the street to go to the beach. We stayed maybe an hour before it started to rain on us which stunk because I didn't even flip sides yet.. Once we got back to the house some of the girls said their goodbyes and others like myself took a nice hard nap. That night we watched The Wedding Ringer & The Longest Ride and ate pizza in bed. Basically it was a huge slumber party and I loved it. I got my hair braided and had pillow talk. I think the girls night in was my favorite part of the whole trip.

Monday morning came and before we left at 9 we had to clean up. Once we left we hit traffic hard!! Panama is only about 2 hours away from us and it took us until 2:00 PM to get home. Literally just sat in traffic for an hour. Everyone had the same idea as us to get up early and leave before the crowd! Once I got home I came home to my two boys, a clean house, and pretty flowers! I think it's safe to say that they missed me.

That night my sweet hubby took me out on a date to Tokyo! It was nice to spend time with just him. I missed him so much! Today is a relaxing day for me to catch up on my sleep and spend time with my boys. Tomorrow is back to work/reality!



I hope the rest of you had a wonderful Labor Day weekend!!